Train Wreck....

Today. In this moment, my life is a train wreck. There is pain, anger, frustration, damage control. A train wreck.....a mess, damage, hopelessness. But within the train wreck I see a light. I'm one of the survivors . I've survived. I will continue until the Lord decides different. I need to clean up, walk away from the crash and learn how to cope with the trauma done to my mental state, my mind: my thoughts are broken yet my Jesus is the doctor who sews my fractured mind back into a beautiful canvas of hope. I know love wins and I know HE loves me, love me. He does. I rest in the truth that God is good.

I want my girls to see the raw me. They need to know there is hope in times of wreckage. They need to know this if they are to live in this world and not only survive but thrive. They need to know that life has train wrecks. They may be in a few and although painful there is hope in Jesus and nothing else.

A dear friend died a horrific death last week. She did not survive the train wreck. I'm trying to find solid ground.
peace. xo

My schedule...

Well, I made this blog public again in hope that I would post on it. I just can't find the time. How I see this blog is " when inspiration happens, I'll post" so it may be days before I post again or weeks, or months. My life is full and I love every last thing I've been called to. I've been going to bed early, getting up early and doing a quiet time with the Lord at least 4-5 days a week. I need time with God. More time then the chats we have throughout my busy day! This time has been refreshing and gives me hope for the tough decisions our family has had to make over the past year.

Last May, we sold our house and we now rent a lovely house with a huge backyard. We might have to downsize once again in order to pay off our debt which is a huge priority. I see how in tough times, families that are debt free stress less. One can live on very little if they have very little...

So as I home school, try to keep my house in order, work from home with Blessed Nest and honor God with being a good wife, mom and friend...the day is full! Funny to some my life looks like chaos. I do a lot. But for me, my life is full of good things from the Lord and the beauty of homeschooling is that I have a flexible schedule. I know what I want to get accomplished in a school year with the girls. How we do that, well it may change daily depending on what other challenges come to call.

I'm at peace, stress level is lower then it has been in years....but this poor little blog is lonely. Oh well...I think it will do just fine until I return next!

Find me daily over at Blessed Nest Perch

Blessings,
Donna