Tuesday, May 17, 2011

mind games?

I wrote this post months ago, published it, then for some reason took it down. Maybe it felt to raw, to honest to put here but I've let go of what "others" might think of my pain, my process and I'm honored that you've come to "read my live journal".

Read it with love? Criticism? Judgment? It doesn't matter to me. But do me a favor and ask Jesus to go on you with your journey through your dark world. The dark part of you.

We all have a dark area of our lives. Dare not to be afraid of it. You're going to be OK.

So am I.

a page from my journal:

Holding my Lord with a white knuckle grip. Take my pain, thoughts. Thoughts. Painful, wonderful thoughts. Wrong? Why Lord? Why?

Take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ. He is the one who can change our thoughts when we give them to Him. Come into my thoughts Lord. I will not hold too tightly to them.

When I friend dies quickly, without notice, the mind plays tricks.

2 comments:

Mano said...

Hi,

You have an incredibly wonderful weblog. To grow to be a productive person the simple issue is to have positive thinking.

Nesting Momma said...

Hi, Mano
I like to think of myself as a positive person. I also like to think of myself as an honest person. I have come to reality that my positive outlook on life can only come through giving my thoughts over to the Lord and bring honesty out into the open through writing, talking about my not so positive places. This brings light and healing. Otherwise, my pain only hides behind the "positive" banter.
Bless you for stopping by and "chatting"